𓁿 2 Challenges of Being Overwhelmingly Brilliant At Too Many Things
Finding out you're a multidimensionalist
TL;DR Don’t know if you know this, but I sing and play several instruments. I’ll be doing my coming-out show as both a musician and priestess this Thursday the 20th at 10am PT / 1pm ET.
I move emotions and energy with my voice. My songs are designed to be an activation of your lifeforce aka kundalini. Think of it as scrubbing bubbles of sound. I can no more explain it in words than I can write up what a strawberry tastes like so you’ll just have to come taste it to see if it’s your flavor.
If we are very very lucky the tech gods will smile down upon us and I’ll have enough complete to show the first peek of the short film made with AI. It’s a tearjerker about healing between masculine and feminine.
Why does your face look like that when I compliment you?
One of the weirdest compliments I ever got was from Gordon Brander, my former colleague in the design department at Mozilla. (He’s currently writing super thoughtful essays about programming and AI over at his Substack, Subconscious.)
He said
I was
one of the
most
talented people
he had ever met.
I had no idea what he was talking about at the time. It gradually dawned on me, but strangely, it didn’t make me feel that good. I had to admit I was more of an alien than I had wanted to realize. I felt lonely.
I desired not to be all “big headed” as my granny called people who “got too big for their britches.” This false modesty was having me not understand that I am hella smart in a way that lets me be good at nearly anything I’m interested in shockingly fast. No, that doesn’t make me special or important, it just makes me who I am. I’m also shockingly bad at certain things too.
I know 100% that I’m not the only one that’s this kind of alien. You may be one too.
Many months ago I wrote an essay called 2 + 2 = 7 about Thomas Young, the medical doctor who built the double-slit apparatus that proved the wave-particle duality of light. He also wrote mathematical equations to determine proper dosage of drugs based on the person’s weight. You might call him a polymath, but I call him a multidimensional because most of what he did wasn’t math. He published the first partial translation of the Rosetta stone in his copious spare time.
When I found Thomas, I was shocked I’d never heard of him given the scale of his contributions, but also deeply comforted that, well… I’m finally not alone. I felt less like an alien when I found him, or at least an alien with one friend who is like them.
People don’t talk so much about this kind of problem because it gives you huge advantage and privilege. Much like my women clients who are so beautiful that it sort of wrecks their life, being brilliant is most definitely in the column of “good problems to have.” Yet, it brings its own problems for sure. I’ll be writing about them in future essays.
I write the following list of my special talents not so much to impress you (although I do admit I hope you will) but to encourage my other brilliant aliens in the audience. Some of you will have your own equally long list or if you know someone like this… for the love of the goddess PLEASE forward them this email. They probably don’t know.
Anyway, so here goes a short list of the things I’m far better than I have any right to be at – product design, sex coaching, fundraising & VC, playing the drums, tantric bodywork, cooking, trauma healing, psychedelic facilitation, singing, coding, gardening, executive leadership, the Enneagram, live music production, UX design, dancing, sewing, logo branding, designing oracle decks, linguistics, commercial printing, web design, mixed media painting, neuroscience, ceramics, video editing, lean manufacturing, sound healing, adventure travel, AI, writing poetry, essays, and songs and soon… filmmaking.
Everything on that list can be a career unto itself. For a multidimensionalist though, it’s impossible to become who you really are are without doing many, many things throughout your life. The breakthroughs come from the synthesis or perhaps it feels more correct to describe it synaesthesia.
Thomas Young was an eye doctor, which is why he thought to look through the lens of optics to solve a problem about photons and physics. Only a sex-coach-technologist-entrepreneur-artist-singer-dancer-priestess could make the mystery school I’m founding. Whatever mix you bring, trust that it’s _all_ necessary.
Multidimensionalists exist.
If you are one, believing this to be true is the start of claiming it. It’s sort of like learning you have ADHD: now you know there are others like you and can stop trying to reinvent the wheel by yourself. You can learn to accommodate your disadvantages.
Because for sure, being a multidimensionalist is no washtub of roses. This path has weird challenges you can’t even explain to most people. You find out that you are a weirdo with some amazing gifts AND amazing disadvantages also, but there are others like you. Now thanks to the internet, we can find each other.
Challenge #1: Not knowing who you are
At the risk of making a circular argument, if you don’t know that your essence can exist, you can’t become that person. If you can’t see yourself then no one else probably will take the trouble to either. You might get lucky in this way, but probably not.
Not fully realizing that I’m hella smart means I do harm to others in ways that are invisible to me. This is no bueno. When your ego is artificially low because you can’t admit that actually you are pretty great in unique ways, that creates weird problems in your relationships that are surprisingly difficult to spot.
It’s always a gift to others to know thyself.
Challenge #2: Many people don’t think a jack of all trades can be a master.
Despite the fact that it’s a widely accepted fact that the double-slit experiment changed physics forever, at the time Dr. Young was mocked. He was laughed out the lunch club. He swore to never attempt to contribute to the field of physics again.
This cannot continue to happen in 2023. Our planet is in too dire of a moment for people to shut off their brilliance. Multidimensionalists are needed to synthesize vastly different topics.
We fucking need you, gawdammit.
The mystery school exists so that we can find each other.
I want to make this study our our inner realities and external gifts together. Only when we’ve done this work can we put our superpowers to use. It is a hell-a-lot funner to do this with others. I’d even go so far as to say it’s nearly impossible to do alone.
I mean it when I say the mystery school is Hogwarts but for real. You’re welcome if you’re a multidimensionalist or a wildly specialized specialist. We need all the kinds of brilliance so we can collaborate and learn together.
If you want to be IN, become a benefactor at any level. At $250 you will be welcomed to our Signal chat where we talk about developing your extrasensory gifts and calibrating your brilliance. No, there’s no deadline but the longer you wait the more you miss since Signal does not have a back scroll.
Mostly though, this is a donation. “Benefactor” means you’re here to offer financial support at this early critical step. You allow me to focus on this alone so we can get this up and running as quickly as possible. Once the 100 spots are claimed, we will close the doors and get going with opportunities only offered to the Benefactors.
Hugs from Oaxaca,
Cris and Team Dragon