Note: I’m gonna talk a lot about the Enneagram in this missive. Consider this your education if you’re new to it. Everyone can learn from today’s topic, so don’t stress if you don’t know your core type.
A calm certainty of what is worthy in your life is only available by inhabiting your belly. It houses your gut instinct, creativity, and sexuality. This is your portal of transformation and transcendence if you are an Enneagram 1, 8, or 9. All types, however, can benefit enormously by doing this work since we all need to have information flowing from our head, heart, and hara (or belly) to be balanced.
Turn-ons and pleasure
An essential step along the path to remembering the essence of who you really are is to discover your turn-ons, desires, and longings. This is the purification of the 2nd chakra, the sacral area which contains your cock or pussy and gut. This is the realm of all things creative such as art or entrepreneurship, and most especially sexuality.
The inner critic would never have you believe this, but your belly is the source of the clarion call of worthiness – what to do with your life, which actions to take, and a sense of perfect timing.
What’s taboo is at the core of the wounding of the One. For nearly everyone of any type, sexuality has been shamed. For the One, however, that taboo marks at the center of your transformation. I have yet to meet a human that didn’t have work to do here.
Note: anything you consider taboo can be transformed with the same techniques that work for sexuality.
It may feel like you’re a child or gawky teenager with regards to your sexuality. If so, know that in a way, you are. That’s ok. If you’re behind your peers the same age, it’s because they have something else in their core wounding that’s not so related to sex. They’re navigating an entirely different prarabdha karma or life path.
First, contemplate anything you already know about your sexuality. What does it feel like to be turned on? Is it a juicy feeling of warmth, a tingling waterfall of cool, or something else entirely? What does your body experience as pleasure?
Exercise
Think of a time when you felt pleasure. Let the memory wash through you and notice how your body feels in this moment. What body sensations do you notice? Write them down. At the end of each day for a week, notice when you felt pleasure that day and give gratitude. By putting your awareness here, you start to strengthen your neural pathways which feel pleasure. You’ll discover what things in your life are worthy of spending more time on.
This will be a surprising experience. No one can possibly predict what your turn-ons will be, not even you. If you dive deep enough into this process, it will reveal the aversions which appear and block your pleasure. You will be invited to confront the part of you that judges your pleasure.
Note: If you struggle to feel or can’t feel at all the good sensations in your body, you’ve got some deeper work to do to reconnect these neural pathways. At some point in your life, they were disrupted. Even if you have no memory or a vague memory of trauma, your body holds the memory. Please know that your pathways to pleasure absolutely can be reconnected, and you need not live the rest of your life feeling only the uncomfortable sensations. Joy is your birthright.
The most powerful ways to accomplish this which I’m aware of are EMDR, Neurofeedback, Family Constellations, Emotional Freedom Technique, and Psychedelic Therapy. (I offer the latter two modalities. Send me a reply if you’re curious to learn more.)
See if you can find some acceptance instead of judging where you are with your sexuality. Adding discomfort to discomfort only keeps you stuck. You might make a little mantra to say anytime the inner judge appears. Find the part of you that’s not a child and have them say “My sexuality is totally ok exactly as it is.” Feel free to make up your own words, just make sure it speaks to the small part of you that needs reassurance.
Resources for integrating the belly
Existential Kink by Carolyn Elliot
Erotic Blueprint by Jaiya
Transmission from the lion
🤝🏼 Substack just dropped a feature for you to get a 7-day trial of premium status. Last Saturday I sent a transmission from Cairo in contemplation with the Sphinx of King Amenemhat III about inhabiting your voice and standing in the gravity of your feet. Here’s the beginning.
Never forget the power of your own roar. And if you can find the ringing resonance of the truth, don't fear to roar loudly. For it is in those moments where you crack open the boundary of that which was to find the expansion.
The Universe herself is ever-expanding. She is ever roaring the roar of creation for bringing into birth is accompanied with sound, with Word, with thought, with deed, with pain, with pleasure, with ecstasy, with the knowing of the truth that this is existence. This moment is happening – it is undeniable.
In those moments when you roar, do not be afraid. And if you find yourself in fear, know that it too is an essential part of this experience. It’s not to punish you or anyone else in the sound of your roar but to set all free from flights of fancy which would have you escape the truth of this moment.
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