I’ve been in hiding. Next week I announce who I’ve become.
The journey from six-figure tech CEO to...?
[coordinates: in bed on this nearly uncomfortably warm Oaxaca afternoon with my legs on top of the covers]
If the Crystal of 2015 could’ve met the Cris of today, I would’ve scared her half to death for about ten different reasons. She wouldn’t have believed all of this was possible.
Job? Entirely different field and skillset
City? In a different country
Eye color? Changed from brown to the same exact hazel as my granny
Best friend? Someone she hasn’t yet met
Lover? Not the very handsome and brilliant Italian anymore, sadly
Cosmology? From Atheism to Hermeticism & Tantra
What happened between then and now?
2015-16 tore me and the company I built apart at the seams.
2017 I really just focused on recovering from burnout/depression.
By 2018 I was ready for my entire concept of how the world worked to be dismantled and re-mantled.
Everything prior in my life led up to those revelatory first glimpses of the essence of myself and how I would come into the service I came to the life to do.
Everything that has happened in the five years since has realized the essence I met in July 2018 in a little town outside of Mexico City that’s the mythic birthplace of the feathered serpent god, Quetzalcoatl. Timothy Leary and Ram Dass apparently also had significant awakenings in these copper-filled hills that shaped the course of their lives and work.
(Whoever has been scriptwriting my life is doing a bang-up excellent job, BTW. You cannot make this shit up.)
I gave up so much to stay true to my knowing of who I am.
There were moments when people I respected told me my gifts were dangerous. There were moments I missed that easy, regular fat paycheck. There were many dark nights of the soul where I felt desperately lost and confused.
I always chose to keep going forward despite my sometimes considerable fears and doubts about my own sanity. I now know a lot more about the meaning of courage.
This week I declared that
it is happening.
I am making it through.
This is happening.
I am doing it.
I’m becoming un-invisible, and that changes everything.
Starting next Monday I’ll begin to do my work in a different fashion. Until then, I have a contemplation for the men reading this: how are you currently of service to the powerful women in your life? If you feel so moved to share, drop it in the comments.
All the love,
Cris and Team Dragon
P.S. I am pleased to introduce you to the newest cats in the house… the magic brothers Tanda and Búho. They arrived right before Equinox. 😘
I am trying to increase polarity. Working to become the most grounded, most loving, most fun and most powerful version of myself so that I'll automatically attract the most powerful version of her.
You ask: how are you currently of service to the powerful women in your life? I just left a 30-year career in tech so I could provide my wife with more support in hers.