It's hard to brag today, but I'm going to do it anyway because it's a good habit, and I like it. It’s changing me to learn how to brag in public.
I brag that I’m facing my disembodied fears at age 43. There are many of them:
I feel all the time like I'm doing everything by myself, but I'm not.
I never want to quit, I only fear that I will.
I'm angry seemingly all the time at how much pain there is in this world, but I'm learning how to burn it as clean, pure fuel instead of smog that poisons my mood and life.
I'm still sad a little bit every morning, but I used to be really sad all day long.
I was sad and scared all my life, I just didn't know it. Now my head lifts up out of the fear for whole big chunks of each day.
I'm still sad a little bit each night when I go to bed, but it's honest sadness. I'm feeling the buried grief one bit at a time, one bite at a time, one day at a time, one deep ragged scared and scarred breath at a time.
I don't even know sometimes why I'm crying, and those are some of my favorite tears of all.
I brag that I’m not just seeking anymore,
I’m finding.
I’m finding.
Two events this week:
Every Friday, Cris hosts the AI Art Salon. This Friday our special guest, Kris Krug, will sit in the hot seat and show us his bot-making magic. It’ll be a Cris/Kris dream team. Click the image below for times in your area and to RSVP.
The second is what we call Relational Alchemy led by David Swedlow. It’s a way of sitting in the simple intimacy of stillness, together… and then talking as and when moved by your heart. The next one is in two day’s time, Thursday the 3rd of August. Both are free and all are welcome.